Saturday, 28 March 2015

Of Angels who Cry

The tales of combat are long told as the legends and lore we hear to the war stories that fascinate us as children. They teach us honor integrity values and the difference between right and wrong through these stories. Yet when the time comes not one of us honors our knowledge, not one of us has the integrity to do what’s right than to survive and no one differentiates between the right and the wrong when the sword is at his own neck.
In a sandy battlefield a lone soldier stood, watching the enemy through his scope wondering where his comrades were. The very same comrades who were supposed to have arrived here two hours ago, the comrades who were supposed to back him up, who were supposed to have given him a cold drink and a soft bed by now. Where were they? The enemy was getting closer and they were nowhere in sight. The land was getting harsher and the sun was in his eyes, the wind was blowing into his face and the sand was getting into his eyes and in that he didn’t hear any sound save that of his own breathing. Not even the sound of the two people who crawled behind him and knocked him out cold.

Where was he? What was the time? Who were the people who snatched him? All these questions were buzzing in his mind along with a very bad head splitting headache. A couple of bulbs lit the room brightly and brought every detail into sharp focus as his eyes regained focus. He saw one door and walls of concrete informing his that escape was almost a physical impossibility. He was tied to a chair both arms and legs locked back and inter connected. The wait was long. He had no idea how long he was left that way. No sense of day and night, minutes nor hours. He began wondering after a while if anyone missed him. If his comrades who said they would back him up had arrived to find him one and thought he deserted.. He wondered if the thought of him being abducted had even crossed their mind. He wondered if his comrades might talk the worst of him for h=not being there. He wondered if there would even be an attempt to find out what happened to him. He wondered how his family would feel when they were informed that their son had deserted. How society would treat them. Then an even more horrifying thought crossed his mind. What if his comrades couldn’t come because they were dead. What if they had been killed by the very men who they were trying to kill? Or rather what if his comrades were to die while searching from him after they realized that he had been taken? Would their deaths be on hands, would their lives be lost because of him? What would happen to their families? Where is all this going to end? We were only trying to protect the city behind us that contained our nearest and dearest. What would happen if all of them fell chasing just after him? Or what if they already had perished? The city would be in chaos, everyone in it in mortal danger if not headed for something worse. His dearest and the younger children would be put through horrors not even describable. The elders killed and the rest put to hard work and shot later. This was to live. They were hunting us down and killing us just because they thought they were superior and we didn’t follow their way of thought? Whatever happened to freedom? We took up arms so that we could protect our people and our homes. We wanted to be the guardian angels that protected them but now because of our resistance they would face even more horrors at the hands of their tormenters should we fail and I have filed. I have failed to protect the very people I swore to protect and I will either have failed miserably or be assumed to be a coward and be disgraced. Either way I have failed or I am no longer a guardian angel but a man who is just a coward waiting for what is to come.

The guard who was watching the soldier from the other side of the door notices that the soldier was crying and goes to inform his superior that the prisoner is ready for interrogation and that all the conditions that he was ordered to monitor have been met.

Saturday, 21 March 2015

TALES OF PAIN AND AGONY

There is a limit to everything. Every feeling every emotion, even every action has a limit where it has to stop. The threshold of how far we can go and how much we can endure is what differentiates the strong from the weak.



A lot of people face pain of really high magnitude. The fact that one has been dumped by someone else is what is generally assumed to be the highest form of pain. However that is a cowards pain.. It will pain when a person you loved doesn’t love you back and leaves you but that isn’t the worst kind of pain. True pain is when you a have a lot of people you like and love and are close to but almost all of them are extremely successful at ignoring you The feeling of having everyone in the world and yet no one for you is the worst thing ever. The feeling just leaves you empty and wanting to help you fill that void with something. It happens when the girl you love ignores everything. She still loves you but is soo angry at you that that ove seems to be hate and none of that love ever shows. It literally makes you think that the other person has no love for you even though you know that they still love you. Anger from that quarter can sometimes overshadow love and cause you more pain than you can imagine. What would you do when a two people love each other but one of them ignores you because they are angry. You can convince an enemy that you are not a bad guy but how will you convince someone who loves you that her anger though justified is causing you pain because that person truly believes that because they love that their anger is justified. The fact they love us actually justifies their anger but that anger also hurt the other partner a lot. The feeling of having someone really close but they themselves ignoring you makes you wish sometimes that it was better without any of that. The second way that this can come up is when your parents start ignoring you. The same mother who raised you from when you were a I’d, who fed you while you sat in her lap listening to stories, at whose side you slept at night while she crooned lullabies. When that very mother tells you, that you are useless and walks away from you and goes and sleeps, that is not a feeling that even I have words for. Accepted I am not an excellent writer but that situation is just indescribable. The mother herself abandoning the baby is not a characteristic usually seen in mammals and being highly evolved mammals that behavior is rarely seen in humans. However if your own mother says such stuff and walks away from you that pain it causes just makes your existence worthless. Pain of the worst kind comes from someone who raised you and now doesn’t even care. That can only cause you agony heart wrenching gut tearing agony and you can’t even doubt the pureness of the emotion. The lady bore you for nine months and enormous amount of labor pain. How much should’ve happened to her normally or because of you for her to leave you. Going back, the same reason someone who has agreed to share everything with you when that person ignores you it gives you the same feeling. The two closest people who always be there for us are the ones that cause us the largest amount of pain and that pain is intolerable